Looking In...x

Do you ever feel like an outsider looking in?
Like you don't fit into a situation..
And that nothing would change if you weren't there?
It's as if you're not really there.. you don't really fit in there..
With the people, and the conversations..
With the place and the time and the gathering..
Like you shouldn't be there.
You just sit there and ease drop on the conversations you should really be a part of..
But it doesn't feel quite right to..
I feel like I'm not part of this group..
Like I'm just a stranger listening in to this conversation..
I'm just butting into a life I'm not really a part of..
I love it so much.. the people.. the places..
But I don't really belong here..
I'm just looking in..

Amy xxxx

"I'm not here. I'm somewhere else. Don't look for me. I don't want to be found."

I Want Headphones x

I want headphones..
Massive pink headphones, that cover my ears completely..
I want to listen to my iPod, with no distractions..
Just lie down in a field.. and let the world turn..
I want to feel the ground beneath me, the grass on my skin..
The soft breeze, lightly swirling leaves..
I want the world to disappear, so all that's left.. is me.. and the music..
I want to watch the clouds roll by, and feel the sun on my face..
Close my eyes as listen to every note, every lyric..
I want to feel so relaxed.. that all my worries just melt away..
I want headphones..

Amy x

Old Photographs x

Old photographs. They're there to remind us of the times in our lives when we were happy enough to care about remembering, and hopeful enough to want to be that happy again..
They freeze a moment in time.. just a split second of our lives.
And in that moment.. you don't just capture what's in photo.. but you capture all the moments which have led you there, the smiles and the tears.. the conversations and journeys.. the people and places.. the lives you've touched.. or have touched you..
All of that from a photo taken in a split second.. a collection of everything that's got you this far.. a photo of the hopes and dreams that have made you who you are, who you were, and who you will be..
*Click*
Another memory preserved for the rest of time..

Amy xxxx

Times Like This x

I live for times like this.. when all you can do is smile :) x
When you're with the people you love the most x
Just having a great time x
Dancing and singing your heart out x
You're only young once..
Enjoy the moments that make you smile, make your heart race.. the moments you hope you won't forget for a long time x
With friends and family you love so much, and know love you back x
Times like this don't come around too often.. so when they do..
Just smile for the camera..
& enjoy every.. single.. second :) x

Love Amy xxxx

People Don't Change x

Trying to change someone is like telling a leopard to change its spots.. they can't.

They may want to, and try.. but it's just not that easy x

You can paint over a picture, but that doesn't change the fact the picture's still there x

Sometimes we'd like to change.. something about ourselves.. our personality.. or how we look..
But you can't change who someone is, what makes them who they are.. x

You can change the clothes you wear, the things you say, the things you do, the make-up you choose.. but that does't change the person underneath..

That's not saying people should stop trying.. they just shouldn't forget who they are.. or try to be someone they're not

Everyone's unique.. don't forget that x

Amy x

Busy Busy Busy x

It's been a busy week!

See, this week was Holiday Club.. a week which everyone has been working long and hard towards since the last one ended a year ago x
So much preparation goes into it.. months worth of hard work goes into making this single week go smoothly.. 75 leaders.. 95 kids.. and A LOT of work! x
But it's so worth it..x
Seeing the looks on the children's faces, the excitement, the pure joy, helping them create something they can feel proud to take home to their parents.. It's wonderful x
The music, songs, drama, the morning work out, the snacks, the crafts.. :) x

I lead the cooking group.. crazy cooking.. with my happy helpers Chris & Rachel.. x
24 kids, 72 cakes, 72 biscuits, 24 pizzas, 24 loaves of bread, and A LOT of mess!
.. Brilliant :) x

Green t-shirts away..
Until next year.. :) ..

Amy xxxx

Someone Else's World x

What is it about tv programs that captures your imagination?

The story lines that draw you in and make it almost impossible to turn off.
Every week, you tune in to those programs you just can't miss..
Some, you revolve your life around, arranging things to fit around it.
They evoke emotions, make us empathise, fascinate us and hook us in.

The story lines that make us sit on the edge of our seat, cry our eyes out or laugh our heads off.. Make us believe in true love, and magic, or make our hearts skip a beat..

All it really is is a scripted sketch, with the sole purpose of entertaining you, but for some reason, they become so much more to some people, a part of us..
Find out what a person watches, and you unearth a part of who they are.. what they like, dislike, how they think, what entertains them.. If they're a laugher, a crier, how they see the world, and so much more.

It's only a tv show.. Half an hour maybe..
But to some people, that's the moment they look forward to the most. The moment they can forget all the troubles, stress and angst going on in their life, and just, for 42 minutes a week, let it all go.. And be part of someone else's world.. Where, when things get hard, you can simply change the channel..

Television may just be another form of media.. but for some, it's so much more.. x

Amy x

The Butterfly Effect x

Every decision we make defines the rest of our life..

Each choice affects you, and what happens to you next..

Think of a decision you had to make..

Was it the right decision, or the wrong one?

Just think.. what would have happened if you'd chosen differently.

If you'd chosen a different University, or submitted your housing application late.. If you'd crossed the road or forgot to hold a door open.. If you skipped a lecture or smiled at someone..

Who would you never have met?.. How would your life be?.. Who would you be?

Your life is the sum result of all the choices you make, both consciously and unconsciously.

It's a strange thought, but every decision counts..

So think carefully.. and don't make the wrong one x

Amy x

Identity x

Who are you?

What makes you, You?

Sum yourself up in 3 words... Is that who you want to be?

Your identity isn't just who you are.. it's how others see you..
It's how you act, what you say, it's the clothes you wear, the food you eat, the emotions you feel..

Me, Myself, I..  All words to describe one person

The fact is, how you see yourself is not necessarily how others see you..
Two versions of the same person.

Who are you? ... And is that who you're going to be? x

Amy x

Driving for a year..x

It's been exactly 1 Year since I passed my driving test! =D x

8:10am on 7th April 2010, I got into my driving instructors car.. and half an hour later.. I passed :)

Wow :) I can't believe it x

I love driving so much! x

:) x

Love Amy x

Random Musing x

The Random Musing of a Troubled Mind
One by one they all fall down
The silent echoes of what might have been
Unrequited desires and misjudged dreams
Forgettable to the point of non-existence
New hopes found through ageing fears
A changing outlook on everyday life
The looked up to and the looked down on
Hidden beneath overpowering shadows

Amy x

Happiness x

Happiness is not a destination. It's a mood.


It's not permanent.


It comes and goes, and if more people thought that way, maybe people would find happiness more often x


Amy x

"When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. 

When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down "happy". 

They told me I didn't understand the assignment.

I told them they didn't understand life." 

— John Lennon

My Bucket List x

When you die you're asked two questions, and your answers determine whether or not you'll get into heaven:

1. Have you found joy in life?
2. Has your life brought joy to others?

So here it is:

My Bucket List 
1.           Take the perfect portrait photo
2.           Sing karaoke
3.           Visit Australia
4.           Be part of a flash mob
5.           Ride a gondola in Venice
6.           Learn sign language
7.           Inspire someone
8.           Compose a song ✓
9.           Have a family
10.        Make cakes professionally
11.         Do lambing ✓
12.         Make a difference
13.         Solve a Rubix cube
14.         Keep a diary every day for a year ✓
15.         Graduate University
16.         Read a long book ✓
17.         Stop worrying
18.         Go to a festival 
19.         Face my fear & give blood
20.        Learn to read aloud confidently ✓
21.         Go to a midnight release day film screening ✓
22.         Go to winter wonderland ✓
23.         Get a job I love ✓
24.         Swim with dolphins
25.         Visit a TV show set ✓
26.         Ride on the London Eye
27.         Go paragliding
28.         Scuba dive in the Great Barrier Reef 
29.         Ride in a hot air balloon
30.         Drive a sports car
31.         Fall in love ✓
32.         Meet Robert Pattinson
33.         Go on safari
34.         See the pyramids first hand
35.         Volunteer to feed the homeless ✓
36.         Eat a stack of pancakes in America
37.         Eat a Belgium waffle in Belgium
38.         Find what really makes me happy
39.         Go to Disney land
40.         Walk through Central Park in NY
41.         Learn to ice-skate
42.         Eat in Heston’s restaurant
43.         Eat in an underwater restaurant
44.         Cook a full Christmas dinner ✓
45.         Get Hypnotised
46.         Have my perfect white wedding
47.         Be in a TV audience ✓
48.         Invent and launch a new product ✓
49.         Go to Cadbury world, again
50.         Complete 5 Project 365’s
51.         Learn to knit again
52.         Get a makeover
53.         Watch an amazing film ✓
54.         Change someone’s life
55.         Hold a new born ✓
56.         Ride a moped
57.         Jump in a pool with my clothes on
58.         Learn to touch-type
59.         Get fit & healthy
60.         Talk to someone on the phone for hours ✓
61.         Lie on the grass in a sunny park, all day ✓
62.         Jump from a cliff into deep water
63.         Watch the fireworks in London ✓
64.         Drive a forklift
65.         Make a patchwork quilt
66.         Make a difference in at least one person’s life
67.         Have a photo exhibited in a gallery
68.         Have my own pet ✓
69.         Adopt a pet from a shelter ✓
70.         Watch the London Olympics ✓
71.         Save someone’s life
72.         Be a great friend ✓
73.         Run a 10k without collapsing
74.         See an amazing concert ✓
75.         Get a hole in 1 ✓
76.         Watch the sun set & rise, the same night
77.         Learn to speak & understand Dutch
78.         Get a great placement job ✓
79.         Sleep under the stars
80.         See 30 plays / musicals
81.         Truly forgive somebody
82.         Experience zero gravity
83.         Have a school reunion
84.         Dance carefree in public
85.         Climb to the top of a mountain  ✓
86.         Believe in something ✓
87.         Fly business class
88.         Learn to play one song on the guitar/uke ✓
89.         Do 50 sit ups in a row ✓
90.         Give someone a heartfelt surprise
91.         Go on a proper road trip
92.         Learn to juggle, well  ✓
93.         Kiss in the rain
94.         Do something spontaneous ✓
95.         Be proud of something/someone ✓
96.         Learn to draw something, well
97.         Jump in a fountain
98.         Be confident ✓
99.         Teach someone something ✓
100.      Sing a duet with Emma, again
101.      Take a chance ✓
102.     Win an award ✓
103.     Paint a full watercolour painting ✓
104.     Complete a giant puzzle
105.     Sell a photograph
106.    See an eclipse ✓
107.    Watch a meteor shower ✓
108.    Live out my fantasy
109.    Have a surprise party ✓
110.    Meet one of my favourite TV show actors
111.    Get an autograph from Mike - Wakey!Wakey! ✓
112.    Watch an outdoor movie
113.    Be quoted by someone
114.    ...


Love Amy x