My happily ever after x

I found my happily ever after..

We met on the 11th July 2012 at Breck Farm in Norfolk. I'd just started my placement at Crush, and everything was new and exciting and terrifying all jumbled up into one.
Then on a Wednesday afternoon, he walked up to our office door and introduced himself.. and that was it, that's how we met, how all of this started. Another new exciting experience, that grew and grew, and was better than anything I could have ever imagined.

The worries weren't there, and that's how I knew.. it was easy and felt right. Where they used to be was simply filled with Love. Real love. We've been through the good and the bad, just like every relationship. But we've been through it together, and come out the other end stronger.

5 incredible years of memories, experiences, adventures and lazy sofa days later, he got down on one knee, by a waterfall in Costa Rica, amongst the lush jungle greenery, hum of Cicadas and surrounded by flowers of every colour.. with his Grandmother's engagement ring.. he asked me to marry him.

I cried. Obviously.
And said YES  (when I could get the words out). Obviously.

And the rest is history.

I hoped with all of my heart for something I didn't even know was out there.. And I found him 💕

Playford Wedding - 05.10.19
I can't wait!

Love Amy x

(Matt & Binky) x

For Happiness' Sake x

Some people spend their whole life searching for an absolute..
For that one thing they were destined to be,
That one thing they are meant to do or say,
That one thing that makes them complete.

For me, all I've ever wanted is to be happy..
Whether that be because of love,
For a boy, for my job, for my friends, for my family,
Or through adventure, creativity and hope..

I don't know what the future holds..

But for the first time I can honestly say.. I Am Happy!

I'm the happiest I've ever been..
Everyday I wake up with a smile on my face,
knowing I have so much to look forward to,
And so much to be happy for..

I honestly can't wait to see what the future holds :)
I'll let you know when I do x

 Love Amy x

This is to me, saying it to their face, before it was too late :) and living happily ever after xxx

I Wish I Could x

This is to the guy at the cinema tonight, the guy at the box office who told me his name was josh and smiled as he told me to enjoy my film. Who didn't seem phased that I was there by myself, and seemed overly amazed at the amount of points I had on my odeon card. I'm sorry I didn't tell you my name. Sorry that all I could do was smile and say cool after everything you said, and that I couldn't look you in the eye because I thought you were attractive. I wish I had, but I got nervous.

This is to the guy at the good food show, that took my breath away for a moment. That asked me for my card so he could call me some time to talk some more about oil. I'm sorry I lied and said I didn't have a card. Sorry that I forgot what I was talking about because I got distracted, and that I didn't take you seriously when you said you liked my accent. I wish I had, but I got scared.

This is to the guy that made me laugh. That made me happy and said I was cute. That made my heart race a little every time I saw them. I'm sorry that I didn't believe you, and pretended not to hear. That I couldn't stop thinking of the what if's and could be's long enough to live in the moment. That I couldn't admit how I really felt, or tell you that I missed you, and probably never will. I wish I had, but I got worried.

This is to me. Maybe one day you'll say this to their face, before it's too late x

A x

That's The Best Part.. x

Tell me how this is all going to end.

Where the chapters in our lives will take us. When we'll truly decide who we want to be.. once and for all.

The world twists and turns around us, choices change people, people make choices. and people change.

People leave, people stay, people turn their back, and others hold on tighter.

I don't know where I'll be in 10 years. I don't even know what I'll be doing tomorrow. Not really.
I may have plans. ambitions, dreams which I want to fulfil. Ideas of who I want to be. But even my dreams change.

I don't know who I want to be. I don't even really know who I am.
All I know is that I'm here, right now, standing on this earth of ours, looking up at the sky, thinking about my life.
I'm thinking about the things that I want.
I'm thinking about who I am, and how others might see me.
I'm thinking about what lies ahead for me, and how I'll get there.
I'm thinking about the things that stand between me and what I want.

I don't know for certain what will happen tomorrow. No one does.
All I know for sure is that I'm here. I am alive.
All we can do is hope that whatever is hiding around that future corner is good. That it's the very best version of ourselves. That all of the limitations that we stumble across in life will take a back seat for once, and let us run free for a while. Let us let our hair down. Let us really enjoy our days.

Until we live in the moment, and accept that we can't foresee what will become of us, and who we will be a year from now.. we'll never be truly happy.

I realise it now.
Don't ruin the book by reading the final page, enjoy the story, from start to finish. Enjoy every word, every sentence, the exciting parts, the scary parts, the parts that make you laugh, and those that make you cry. Read the whole story, without all the spoilers.
That's the best part.

Love Amy x

I Haven't Stopped Blogging.. Honest x

I've just moved! At least, that's the reason I haven't blogged on here in a while.

I miss this blog, I really do!

But I've been blogging here...
www.crush-foods.com/the-crush-blog.html

I've also started Vlogging.. can you believe it.. ME.. vlogging.. Well see for yourself here..
www.youtube.com/amzyangel92

And a bit more here...
www.amybekooy.weebly.com

That'll fill in a few gaps!

So don't forget me.
I think I may start posting more on here :)
5 Months is a long time!

Update : I Love My Job.. I'm Happy :) x

The End

Love Amy xxxx

When I Was Younger.. x

When I was younger, my mum and I would walk from the bungalow, with our buckets and spades, wearing our shorts and jelly shoes, all the way down to Hunstanton beach.

It's a memory that's so clear in my mind, that I remember as being some of the happiest moments of my life. It was in the school holidays, we'd travel up to see Grandma and Grandad, and even if the sun wasn't shining, we'd walk down, to paddle, to make sandcastles, to explore the rock pools, to collect shrimps or shells in a bucket, as long as our feet touched the sand, at least once, we'd be happy. I remember the amusement park, with the slippery slope, and the doughnuts we'd get, occasionally. I remember the trek that felt like we were walking for hours, to the end of the beach, just so we could say we'd done it. I remember walking back, with sand covered feet, and loving the feel of hot tarmac on my soles. And finally, when we arrived back at the bungalow, washing our feet in warm soapy water before being allowed to set foot inside. I remember the train, the little land train which would take us home if our legs got too tired from walking all day.

All my childhood memories came flooding back to me today, when I drove to Hunstanton to spend my lovely, sunny, scorching day off at the beach. It was magical, and as if nothing had changed. Except, the walk felt much shorter, and everything seemed much smaller. I guess when you grow up, and your legs get a lot longer, it takes much less time!

I retraced my footsteps from years ago, and it felt like home xx

Love Amy xxxx

I'm Happy :) ... x

... Very Happy x

I don't need to say anything more :) x

Love Amy :) xxxx

"The most important thing is to enjoy your life - to be happy - it's all that matters" ~ Audrey Hepburn

A Fresh Start x

I moved to Norfolk.

Yepp, last week I packed up all my stuff, and moved into my new flat in Norwich.
All by myself.
You see, on Monday, I started my work Placement :)
I'm working for a lovely company in Norfolk called Crush Foods :)

Now apparently I'm not meant to write anything about my placement..
I really don't know why!
But I'm going to anyway, because I have nothing bad to say.. at all.

It's been a week,
And I'm loving it <3 p="p">Genuinely loving it.

The people are lovely, and the atmosphere's great.. and I've learned so much already..

I can make sales.. I can get stockists.. I can use sage.. I can do customer visits and deliveries.. I can run a stall by myself.. I can do so many new things.. and most of all..
I can speak on the phone.
I know that sounds a bit lame.. but I really didn't like talking on the phone.. especially with strangers. It filled me with fear.. But now.. I just pick up the phone, and call anyone. Now a week ago, I couldn't do that.

I feel more confident.

That's what I love about this job.
It's teaching me so much more than I could have hoped for.
Things I never even realised I could learn.

And it's only been a week!

I've got freedom and responsibility..
And a great company to work for <3 p="p">I just want to be the best that I can be, and do the best I can do..
I want to make a difference!

I love my job..

I hope they like me too! x

So, this is my fresh start :)
This is going to be a great year.. xx

Love Amy x

Photographs & Memories x

Photographs can stir up all sorts of memories. From the time you went to the park with your friends, to the standing ovation on the last night of your final year show. It's amazing how one split second moment in time, captured and saved on film, can hold so much. Not just the place, or the time, but the people you were with, the clothes you wore, the things you said, or didn't say. The way you looked, your hair, your smile. All of the emotions you felt for that single moment, preserved in time. A picture tells a thousand words, they say. But it holds so much more than that. I love photography. Not just the process, but capturing memories so nobody forgets. I don't want to look back on my life and wish that I'd taken more photos, or forget a single moment that made me smile, laugh, cry with happiness, the people, the places. And more than anything, I don't want the people I love to either. So here it is. The world through my eyes. I hope you love them as much as I do. Never forget the good times. And never stop capturing them.

<3


Amy xxxx

Free Time x

I'VE FINISHED MY EXAMS!!!! :D x

And here I am.. back home.. with all the time in the world!!

And I have no idea what to do with it all!

Having free time..
So much time.. so many things to do.. so many options.. It's tough deciding what to do with it all!
Seeing friends from back home.. watch TV, play games, play the piano, read a book, go shopping, go see a film, have a film marathon, bake something, cook something, learn to juggle (check!), go out and take photos, learn to paint, write something, go for a meal, go camping, FINALLY have a lie in!
So many things I could do.. the list is endless!

So here I am.. sitting at my piano, writing some songs and learning to play the songs I've wanted to for so long..

Because I can :)

I don't start placement for a month or so, so I have all the time in the world to do the things I haven't been able to for so long :)

BRING ON THE SUMMER! 

Love Amy xxxxxxxxxxxx

Extraordinary x

And I realised..
Looking at my friends.. at my family.. at the strangers passing by..


I am not extraordinary.. 

I'm just like everybody else in the world..
What I am is not extraordinary..
We're all human.. all living.. all normal people..
Having fun.. learning.. laughing..
Watching the world go by..
No, I am not extraordinary..

But I could do extraordinary things..

<3

Love Amy x

Little Confessions.. x

My little confessions...

1. I like crying, it makes me feel alive.
2. I'm obsessed with Twilight.
3. I have a constant internal monologue.
4. I wish my life had a soundtrack.
5. Buying and giving gifts to others makes me happier than receiving them, but I do love both.
6. I miss school.
7. I want to inspire someone, as much as those who have inspired me.
8. My family means everything to me, more than they could ever know.
9. I've watched the whole of Friends all the way through 8 times, and once backwards. That's not counting hundreds of individual episodes.
10. My happy place is lying in the park with my friends, the summer of 2008.
11. I love quotes, and want one day to be quoted.
12. I cried through the entire One Tree Hill finale. Now I can't watch it without crying.
13. I wish I spoke up more.
14. Sometimes I wonder how I found such great friends, and why they chose me.
15. I watched all 6 seasons of Supernatural the week before my exams, and passed every single one with good marks.
16. My favourite food is bread sauce. Sometimes I make it and just eat it out of the jug.
17. I love driving on the motorway.
18. I know that I should eat healthily, and how to, but I still don't.
19. Sometimes I have great ideas, and never do anything about them.
20. I used to want to be a German teacher. Then I discovered food, and never looked back.
21. There are no words to describe how much I love to play my piano. It's my little escape from reality.
22. I still get homesick.
23. I carry my camera everywhere. I'm obsessed with photography, and have a collection of around 100,000 photos.
24. I compulsively blow in every glass before I use it, and I don't know why.
25...

Love Amy x

You'll Never Know Until You Try,, x

You'll never know if you can do something until you give it a go..

If you don't ask, you won't get.. and all that..

Some things just need to be given a go..

And if you fall off the horse.. just jump right back up and try again..

Remember:
There's no such thing as failure.. Only attempts at success :) x

Love Amy x

QR Codes x

QR Codes are fun :)

Love Amy xxxx

New Wakey!Wakey! Cover Photo :) x

My New Facebook Cover Photo :)

I do love a bit of Wakey!Wakey!

almost everything I wish I'd said the last time I saw you.... <3

Love Amy x

My Work Here Is Done x

If all that you take away from this blog is the music playing in the background...
My work here is done <3 x

Have a little hope.. and don't forget to smile :)

Love Amy x

SH12 x

Spring Harvest 2012 ..

No Words.. Just Memories <3 x

Love Amy x

There is Only One Tree Hill.. & it's Your Home x

"It's the oldest story in the world. One day you're 17 & planning for someday. And then quietly & without you really ever noticing, someday is today & then someday is yesterday & this is your life."

Today.. I watched the last ever episode of One Tree Hill.
And I actually can't believe it's over.

It's been my favourite show for 9 years, and now...
It's finished, it's over.
There will never be another episode, another story told,
That's it.
After 9 years.

*Sobs*
I didn't stop crying.

It was incredible, nostalgic, heartbreaking, heart warming, beautiful.

It went out on a high.. it felt like home.
And now it feels like a part of me is missing..

Because it was so much more than a TV Show..

It was...
Hope
Love
Happiness
Music
Friendship
Joy
Ambition
An Escape from Reality

It was that little ray of sunshine every week..
It taught me so much, about how to live, how to love,
How to go after your dreams and fight for what you believe in..
Even when the odds are against you.

"We spend so much time wanting, pursuing, wishing, but ambition is good. Chasing things with integrity is good. Dreaming... If you had a friend you may never see again, what would you say? If you could do one last thing for someone you loved, what would it be? Say it. Do it. Don't wait. Nothing lasts forever."

There is only one Tree Hill.. and it's MY home x
I'm going to miss is so much x

"Make a wish & place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle's gonna come from. The next memory. The next smile. The next wish come true. But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart & mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it. You just might get the thing you've been wishing for. The world is full of magic ... you just have to believe in it. So make your wish ... do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With ALL of you heart."

Goodnight Tree Hill.. it's been amazing x

You'll have a place in my heart..

Always and Forever x

Love Amy x

You're Losing Your Memory.. Now..

Call all your friends

Tell them I’m never coming back

‘Cause this is the end

Pretend that you want it, don’t react

The damage is done

The police are coming too slow now

I would have died

I would have loved you all my life

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory now

Where have you gone?

The beach is so cold in winter here

And where have I gone?

I wake in Montague with you near

Remember the day

‘Cause this is what dreams should always be

I just want to stay

I just want to keep this dream in me

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory

Wake up, it’s time, little girl, wake up

All the best of what we’ve done is yet to come

Wake up, it’s time, little girl, wake up

Just remember who I am in the morning

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory now

You’re losing your memory...

<3

by Ryan Star

I never want to lose my memory..
Damn, I love this song.

Love Amy x

It Gets Better.. Goodnight Dan Scott x

I cried through the entire episode..

It was heart-wrenching.. heart-warming.. tear-jerking..

Incredible.

Today.. after nearly 8 years of hating Dan Scott from OTH..

I found myself in floods of tears..

As I watched the man.. that I had hated for so long.. but grown to love over the last season..

Break down, and say goodbye..

As I heard him say the words.. 

"It gets better".. "I love you too".. and "For once, lets just play to play"

And watched him walk into the light with his brother.. Keith..

I found myself in pieces..

It was perfection.

See it for yourself..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_s1ax1l6564&list=UUWujSoByZu2Nm1LP9AORaDQ&index=3&feature=plcp
&
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-IYwjGirxE 

Goodnight Dan Scott.. Goodnight Keith Scott x

You couldn't have gone out in a better way..

There wasn't a dry eye in the house.

It gets better..

<3

Love Amy x