That's The Best Part.. x

Tell me how this is all going to end.

Where the chapters in our lives will take us. When we'll truly decide who we want to be.. once and for all.

The world twists and turns around us, choices change people, people make choices. and people change.

People leave, people stay, people turn their back, and others hold on tighter.

I don't know where I'll be in 10 years. I don't even know what I'll be doing tomorrow. Not really.
I may have plans. ambitions, dreams which I want to fulfil. Ideas of who I want to be. But even my dreams change.

I don't know who I want to be. I don't even really know who I am.
All I know is that I'm here, right now, standing on this earth of ours, looking up at the sky, thinking about my life.
I'm thinking about the things that I want.
I'm thinking about who I am, and how others might see me.
I'm thinking about what lies ahead for me, and how I'll get there.
I'm thinking about the things that stand between me and what I want.

I don't know for certain what will happen tomorrow. No one does.
All I know for sure is that I'm here. I am alive.
All we can do is hope that whatever is hiding around that future corner is good. That it's the very best version of ourselves. That all of the limitations that we stumble across in life will take a back seat for once, and let us run free for a while. Let us let our hair down. Let us really enjoy our days.

Until we live in the moment, and accept that we can't foresee what will become of us, and who we will be a year from now.. we'll never be truly happy.

I realise it now.
Don't ruin the book by reading the final page, enjoy the story, from start to finish. Enjoy every word, every sentence, the exciting parts, the scary parts, the parts that make you laugh, and those that make you cry. Read the whole story, without all the spoilers.
That's the best part.

Love Amy x

I Haven't Stopped Blogging.. Honest x

I've just moved! At least, that's the reason I haven't blogged on here in a while.

I miss this blog, I really do!

But I've been blogging here...
www.crush-foods.com/the-crush-blog.html

I've also started Vlogging.. can you believe it.. ME.. vlogging.. Well see for yourself here..
www.youtube.com/amzyangel92

And a bit more here...
www.amybekooy.weebly.com

That'll fill in a few gaps!

So don't forget me.
I think I may start posting more on here :)
5 Months is a long time!

Update : I Love My Job.. I'm Happy :) x

The End

Love Amy xxxx

When I Was Younger.. x

When I was younger, my mum and I would walk from the bungalow, with our buckets and spades, wearing our shorts and jelly shoes, all the way down to Hunstanton beach.

It's a memory that's so clear in my mind, that I remember as being some of the happiest moments of my life. It was in the school holidays, we'd travel up to see Grandma and Grandad, and even if the sun wasn't shining, we'd walk down, to paddle, to make sandcastles, to explore the rock pools, to collect shrimps or shells in a bucket, as long as our feet touched the sand, at least once, we'd be happy. I remember the amusement park, with the slippery slope, and the doughnuts we'd get, occasionally. I remember the trek that felt like we were walking for hours, to the end of the beach, just so we could say we'd done it. I remember walking back, with sand covered feet, and loving the feel of hot tarmac on my soles. And finally, when we arrived back at the bungalow, washing our feet in warm soapy water before being allowed to set foot inside. I remember the train, the little land train which would take us home if our legs got too tired from walking all day.

All my childhood memories came flooding back to me today, when I drove to Hunstanton to spend my lovely, sunny, scorching day off at the beach. It was magical, and as if nothing had changed. Except, the walk felt much shorter, and everything seemed much smaller. I guess when you grow up, and your legs get a lot longer, it takes much less time!

I retraced my footsteps from years ago, and it felt like home xx

Love Amy xxxx

I'm Happy :) ... x

... Very Happy x

I don't need to say anything more :) x

Love Amy :) xxxx

"The most important thing is to enjoy your life - to be happy - it's all that matters" ~ Audrey Hepburn

A Fresh Start x

I moved to Norfolk.

Yepp, last week I packed up all my stuff, and moved into my new flat in Norwich.
All by myself.
You see, on Monday, I started my work Placement :)
I'm working for a lovely company in Norfolk called Crush Foods :)

Now apparently I'm not meant to write anything about my placement..
I really don't know why!
But I'm going to anyway, because I have nothing bad to say.. at all.

It's been a week,
And I'm loving it <3 p="p">Genuinely loving it.

The people are lovely, and the atmosphere's great.. and I've learned so much already..

I can make sales.. I can get stockists.. I can use sage.. I can do customer visits and deliveries.. I can run a stall by myself.. I can do so many new things.. and most of all..
I can speak on the phone.
I know that sounds a bit lame.. but I really didn't like talking on the phone.. especially with strangers. It filled me with fear.. But now.. I just pick up the phone, and call anyone. Now a week ago, I couldn't do that.

I feel more confident.

That's what I love about this job.
It's teaching me so much more than I could have hoped for.
Things I never even realised I could learn.

And it's only been a week!

I've got freedom and responsibility..
And a great company to work for <3 p="p">I just want to be the best that I can be, and do the best I can do..
I want to make a difference!

I love my job..

I hope they like me too! x

So, this is my fresh start :)
This is going to be a great year.. xx

Love Amy x